Planning-

Suicide note-

Dear the ones I love,

I can’t begin to thank you for the most amazing life that you’ve given me, I fear that you’ll spend time that’s worth living on the ‘why’ but I feel that this was the only option.

The life I’ve lived was a life of lies and sadness but you were my light that gave me a bit of hope in the darkest of times, without that this would of happened a lot quicker. I feel like I’ve let you all down by being selfish but I know it had to be done without this my pain would of carried on.

During school a lot of things happened that you didn’t know about, during year 11 I was walking to the toilets and I was attacked I was punched and hit this was all due to me being gay. I wonder if being straight would of made my life better and I wouldn’t of had the hardships that I’ve gone through. You’ve supported me through it all and accepted me for who I am, but not everyone has I’ve been bullied and hurt, I’ve been left to cry alone when I didn’t want you to know how bad It really felt.

I hope you at some point understand why this happened and why it had to happen and you must understand this was none of your fault you helped me and made me carry on for just a bit longer, I love you and always have you are my life and my joy and I hope you remember all the good times we had and never let all the bad things over shadow our amazing life together.

To my friends and family you’re all beautiful and amazing, I hope I’ll look down on you from where ever I end up and watch as you live the life you deserve. Please I beg live a life of joy and adventure and never take a moment for granted.

Love Alfie